God is Always in the Room
on showing up with confidence
I spent all day looking for God in every corner.
I looked under my bed
under my pillows
in between the couch cushions.
I even checked the fridge.
I frantically searched and searched for all the places He might be hiding.
And I never thought to look within myself.
It turns out He was right under my fingernail.
It turns out that I found him in my hair
When I put my arm up close to my face— so close that I could count every individual hair— I just saw energy
and light seeping out of my pores.
And it was then that I realized,
that no matter how hard the bad things come for me,
no matter how hard the darkness tries to take me down,
it simply can't.
It can't take me down because God is within me.
And so if God is within me,
every room I’m in,
God is in there too.
It doesn't matter that the darkness tried to bring the curtains down and send everybody home. God was there
and said the show must go on.
So I know now,
that it never mattered:
how every time I turned,
every place I went,
something went wrong,
and the darkness would try to creep in and remind me that I am unworthy
and remind me that no one cares
and that everyone is out to get me
and that I do not matter.
At every step
in every corner
in every place.
God was within me
so God was always in all those rooms.
I searched for peace
and I found freedom
today started out with dense and heavy rain clouds.
Now I’m driving through a sunset
rising from the ashes
basking in the God light
looking all around me
noticing:
God is anything good,
and light,
and magic.
It doesn’t matter what you call it.
God is always in the room.
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